The World

The World.
So much amazes me about this vast planet, but I have to say that the way in which people run the world is the most fascinating. Take my AP World Literature class for example; today we discussed hunger and poverty, child support, and those people who just have too many kids. It all started on the subject of teen pregnancy and how one fifteen year old girl had her FOURTH child just so her child support check would be higher. This amazed me. She was fifteen and going on her fourth kid. Holy Cow! But, it got even more interesting. We got on the topic of how our government shouldn't even give money to these people, for if there wasn't any government money to support them, then they wouldn't have as many children. I, for one, disagree with this. However, as it turns out, my best friend does. This same best friend who reminds me everyday about the starving children in Africa. Now this is quite trivial to me; how can she be so concerned with the African children, when there are children in America starving. Don't get me wrong, we do need to help the Africans, but we also need to be conscientious of our own people. Yes, these people in question have an uncontrollable amount of children, but if you take away their government help, they still won't have the gumption to get up and get a job. Those children will starve and then where will we be? Just like our African counterparts; hungry and malnourished. I am a firm believer in helping everyone achieve a better life, I plan on joining the Peace Corps, but I think it should be done in a more plausible way. Instead of just taking away all their government help, why don't we assist them in finding jobs and helping them get on their feet. We have to remember that it isn't just low lives receiving government assistance, some people really do need help. My mom did, and she worked for what she had, even if it wasn't much. I just hope that before people go gallivanting off into a third world country, they'll step back and take a good look at ours, and hopefully use some of their good will energy to help those less fortunate in America.

Mental Breakdown

Mental breakdown. My life has come to a point where I just don't know what to do anymore. Recently my whole perspective on life has changed, and while I still hold my values, a lot of things have changed. I thought that I had everything figured out; I was set and ready to go. I was clearly wrong. Friendships have been questioned, my intended major and college choice are completely down the tubes, my family situation is in shambles; it's getting harder and harder to focus on what's important.

While I had planned to attend Northwestern College, I've decided that's not what I want anymore. Well at least I'm not sure if that's what I want. I want the college experience and that's not going to happen at Northwestern. My major, while I still have an interest in English, just doesn't seem plausible anymore. I want to join the Peace Corps but what do I do after that? It seems like I'm always second guessing or questioning myself and I can never get the answer right. Is there an answer?

It feels like there is just so much going on, like I'm running a mile a minute, and I just can't slow down. Unfortunately, I'm running into a brick wall. There's no escape from the monotonous life that I'm in and any answers that I might find are just beyond my reach, yet I can't find them.

In short, THIS SUCKS!

Summer's End

It's hard to describe why this summer was so amazing and why it's going to be so hard to adjust to school, but I guess it can ultimately be done in one word: Besties. Friends so close, that not a single night was spent without them. That's about 70 days of constant movie nights, "family" dinners, sand volleyball, Gordon Ramsey, plenty of Last Comic Standing, and of course' all the nights we just sat around and played ping pong. Now this doesn't sound all that fascinating but it was truly the best summer I've ever had. I have to say that the seven people who this post relates to, are truly my family.

Returning to school was difficult. Not in the way that I don't get to see them as much, but now there are no late night Perkins runs or last minute plans. I actually have to go to bed at a descent hour because I have nothing to do! I know that summer won't be the same next year, which is another reason why letting go of this one is so difficult. With friends running off to college or the army... life just won't be the same. But I guess that I have to remember that friendships like these last a lot longer than what high school does, so no worries right?

Though For The Day:
College Admissions Essay. Holy POOP! I can not think of what to say. I mean, it should be simple right? You just ramble on about yourself, making sure you spell things correctly and whatnot, until you're finished. Nope. Not happening. It's like I'm temporarily mute in the brain and can't think. IT'S SO DIFFICULT! I feel like doing taxes was easier than this. How do you talk about yourself without sounding completely conceded but still making yourself look good? Ugh. By the end of this, I will be insane.
Question: What do you see as the primary benefits of a college education, particularly at a Christian college like Northwestern, and what contributions do you hope to make to enrich the Northwestern community?
Answer: ???????
HELP!!

College Life

Thought for the day:
College life. A thing to be pondered. Yes, I am still a senior and not even close to graduation, but the time will come when I have to buckle down and finish filling out my applications. A frightening thought considering that the essays on those things are so dang difficult to fill out. I mean, what do you say?
Then of course, after turning those in, you have the possibility of not getting accepted. And if you do get accepted, you have to worry about financial crap, what major you want, who you're rooming with...JEEPERS! Sometimes it just seems easier to not go to college, but then you would miss so many opportunities. Not to mention the degree you'll get. A slip of paper signifying years of hard work.
The pros of college life: the people. Hands down, knowing that you'll meet some of the most important people of your life, just trumps everything that could possibly be bad about college.
So in conclusion:
BRING IT ON SENIOR YEAR...COLLEGE AWAITS!